Midnight thought.

Oh hi. I just woke up, scared of the buzzing on my fone. My heart beat faster, and now i can’t go back to sleep. My mind then started to wander and think about all sort of random things. Most of them are relevant to my present life, and some are just completely random.

I recorded a video of myself reviewing a book that I recently read, and then I thought how in the video I mixed Indonesian and English a lot. Like improper mixed language that I felt a bit awkward to watch it again.

It’s weird how I can only speak informal Indonesian (slang), eg. just talking about daily stuff.

Once I try to speak about heavier topics such as professional or academic topics, I switch directly to English and it just feels better.

What even weirder is that I love to write poems or short stories in Indonesian (which is non-slang). So technically I don’t have problems with vocabulary. But my poems and short stories typically aren’t related to professional and academic topics. Hmmm..

Anyway, not sure what’s the point of writing this one.

I’ll try to go back to sleep.